End of the Year

I went through about 10 titles for this before I settled on "End of the Year".

I guess this will be the typical summary of the year 2009, the ups and the downs, the rights and the wrongs.

This year started out pretty damn rough, financially and emotionally. The struggle/ stubbornness to grasp onto any assistance offered by family and friends. The outright disregard for others feelings, which is not typical of me at all or so I thought. It seems that every year before this I was alone and was fine with being alone, but it was the way I went about it. Some people would say that I am just like every other guy out there, trying to run through women like its a 10k race. Others who really know me for me would understand my struggle to manage life in general, "life is tough" - a weak platitude.

My first blog ever was back in August about a belligerent night with some friends and realizing in the midst of the everything that no one will ever be truly happy, everyone just settles for what they have in front of them at that very moment because they are afraid of being alone ...

I am ending this year differently than the past. I am in a wonderful relationship, I have a grasp now and see an end to my financial struggles. At the end of 2009 I can say that I am happy with a huge dorky smile.